I love him! =)

hmmm. lets see.

sat
b: usual
l: cheeseburger, small fry and diet coke from mickey d's
d: some rotisserie chicken, little bit of tater salad, maybe 7 tater tots w/ ketchup and diet ginger-ale
dessert: the 3 of us split a banana split
snack later: vanilla hot chocolate w/ real mini marshmallows

sun
b: usual
l: moe's chicken, black bean, rice, cheese quesadilla and sweet tea
snack: tall gingerbread latte from s-bux
d: plain oikos greek yogurt, walnuts, craisins and honey and diet ginger-ale
dessert: very tiny glass of riesling

mon
b: usual
l: 2 slices homemade pizza w/ cheese, baby bellas, and diced pineapple
d: toasted cheese sandwich on sourdough and can of chicken noodle soup

Quickie Post

Getting out of work early tonight. YAY!! Don't have to work tomorrow YAY again! And... I get to spend the entire weekend with B! Major YAY!!!

b: usual
l: salad from caf and cornbread square
d: can of ravioli and 1/2 toasted cheese sandwich on sourdough

resisted SOOOO many sweets today at the hospital. actually all week. people don't even ask me anymore =)

Blah Day

The last 24 hours have stunk big time.

b: 2 eggs scrambled w/ splash of milk & shredded cheddar on top. 2 biscuits w/ strawberry jam and 2 slices bacon
l: salad and dinner roll from cafeteria
d: oatmeal creation

sipping on tea.

Wednesday Hump Day

B: the usual
L: turkey, cheese, mustard sandwich. oikos plain greek yogurt w/ frozen mixed berries on top and some kashi vive cereal
D: toasted cheese sandwich on sliced sourdough bread. 2 cut up kiwis.
(Blue... I kept debating on whether I should have a little cup of soup w/ dinner since it would fit nicely, but had to make the adult decision to go without since I really didn't need it) <--- it felt good to have a healthy sense of control. =)

boring food update =P

tuesday:
b: coffee w/ creamer. 2 eggs scrambled w/ some shredded cheddar, 2 biscuits w/ strawberry jam and 2 slices bacon
l: oatmeal creation. oat bran, quaker oats, craisins, walnuts, PB, pumpkin butter, banana and cinnamon
d: salad greens, chicken breast w/ marinade, baby bella mushrooms, slivered almonds, 2 dried figs, thousand island dressing (i think thats it??) . wheat thins.

monday:
b: the usual
l: salad from cafeteria w/ slice of cornbread
d: spaghetti, some mac n cheese and veggies (caf. food... )

sunday:
b: pumpkin pancakes made w/ oats, 2 eggs, pumpkin, and a smidge of pancake mix. pumpkin butter on top and a little syrup. 2 slices bacon
snack: 2 s'mores made in microwave
snack: french fries w/ ketchup and some mountain dew @ bowling alley
dinner: cheeseburger, small fry and diet coke from mickey d's
snack: little bit of trail mix

saturday:
b: the usual
snack: some candy corns and peanuts (not very many) and a chai latte made at home
d:sushi. lots. and some fruit =)
glass of riesling

i think that was everything......

Made it through another week!

I can't wait to sleep in tomorrow. I woke up yesterday and today at 4 am to study!

b: coffee w/ creamer. oat bran, quaker oats, banana, pumpkin pie spice, cinnamon, a date, water and splash of milk nuked. kashi vive, pumpkin butter and spoonful of chunky PB.

l: turkey, cheese, mustard, mostly tomato (haha) sandwich, garden salsa sunchips, kiwi

d: chicken breast in marinade and roasted sweet potato slices (both sprinkled with shredded mozz) and an apple

Kept craving sweets and snacks today but my meals were so satisfying when I sat down to eat each time. I really love my breakfast. It held me over from 4:30am yesterday until 12:30 at lunchtime! That is 8 hours!!!!

Loooong Days but tomorrow is Friday!

So many tests today, and more tomorrow. But shockingly, I have been in a great mood all day =)

yesterday
b: coffe w/ cream and the usual
l: turkey, cheese, mustard sandwich and garden salsa sunchips
d: leftover mixed grains, roasted sweet potato slices w/ shredded mozzarella over both. creamy tomato basil bisque (or something similar) soup in a can. couldn't finish all of the soup.

today
b: do I need to list it? haha
l: salad greens, cut up marinated chicken breast, some craisins, walnuts, lowfat ranch (all we had... eww), a spoonful of mixed grains, salt & pepper and some wheat thins
d: the rest of the mixed grains, roasted sweet potato again with mozz., kiwi, 2 dried figs.

one more paper, test and presentation tomorrow and the weekend is mine! It's T's birthday on Sunday so I think we are celebrating on Sat and then with friends on Sun. Thank goodness for S days!

Head.Ache.

Today was uneventful. I have been so moody lately. I feel sorry for everyone around me sometimes...

breakfast: coffee w/ cream. 2 scrambled eggs w/ a little bit of shredded cheddar on top. 2 slices bacon, 2 biscuits w/ strawberry jam

lunch: cornbread square. salad with iceberg mix, spinach leaves, raisins, sunflower seeds, beets (i looooove beets <3), mushrooms, shredded carrot, 3 or 4 cherry tomatoes. topped w/ honey mustard dressing and s&p

dinner: chicken marsala, roasted red potatoes and baked mac n cheese

i know my blogs are boring lately, but my my mind is crammed full of stress lately and I don't feel like gushing about it on here. I still like to post what I ate though so that I can refer back to it later. It helps sometimes to actually see that I'm staying on track.

Great weekend of relaxation

So Saturday was pretty fun.

lunch: oatmeal creation w/ pumpkin butter, crunchy PB, some trail mix thrown in
dinner: sprite zero and a bite of cheese pizza @ bowling alley.
was nauseous yet again.....

sunday:
breakfast: coffee w/ cream. oats, eggs, and a little pancake mix, with banana and cinnamon. made pancakes. topped with pumpkin butter and syrup. also had 2 slices of bacon on the side
lunch: cheeseburger, small fry and diet coke from mickey d's. (that's what you get when you spend the weekend with a 6 year old.)
dinner: steak, tomato parmesan angel hair, roasted sweet potatoes w/ cinnamon and roasted brussel sprouts w/ splash of canola oil, maple syrup, and a pinch of salt. tall glass of skim milk.
dessert: banana split. banana, vanilla and strawberry ice cream (1 scoop each), strawberry topping, walnuts in syrup (just a little tiny bit), choc. sprinkles and whipped cream. yum!

watched Get Smart. So funny! I haven't laughed like that in a while!

monday
breakfast: coffee w/ cream and oatmeal creation
lunch: curried chicken salad sandwich with 2 tomato slices. cut up carrot and green bell pepper dipped in artichoke hummus
dinner: leftover steak, roasted sweet potato & brussel sprout, leftover veggies & hummus from lunch, and some mixed grains. little bits of each so it all fit nicely. =)

New 21 Day Weigh In

Down 4 pounds! The next 3 week interval ends the Saturday after Thanksgiving. I'll be in Houston, so I'm hoping for at least 2 down, but I'll be happy with even one. That would be one more pound of weight removed from my body. =)

So far,
breakfast: coffee w/ creamer, sausage McGriddle from Mickey D's. <--- not very good at all, but Nana brought one for me and B each, so we ate them together.

I find it absolutely impossible to be in bad mood around B. 6 year olds are so innocently beautiful. I love him so much!

So I went from 126 down to 122. I have been eating anything that I want to lately as well. Some days aren't so healthy, and others all I want are fruits and veggies. I think that is the way it is supposed to be. I do not feel deprived in the least, and the habit is definately starting to sink in.

Hope everyone has a great weekend! I'll post the rest of the weekend on Monday.

Finally Friday

Felt nauseous pretty much all day. This is going on almost 2 weeks now!

breakfast: coffee w/ creamer. 1 1/2-2 eggs scrambled, 1 slice of bacon, 2 biscuits w/ strawberry jelly
lunch: flour tortilla w/ taco meat and shredded cheese. tortilla chips w/ guac, sour cream, 7 layer dip. went easy on everything though
dinner: curried chicken salad sandwich with tomato. carrot sticks and green bell pepper strips dipped in hummus

I'm weighing in tomorrow....... get excited.

Off to make some tea to ease the belly. Gotta keep her happy!

Pow Pow Pow Pow!

Cancer everywhere!!!!! Visited Gran in the hospital today. Those were the best 2o minutes I've had in a long time. She really is the Grandmother I never had. Every time I see her she tells me how she prayed for me to come into their lives. I love her so much!

breakfast: coffee w/ creamer. oats, 3 dates, banana, cinnamon, and water nuked. kashi vive, pumpkin butter and a spoon of PB on top
lunch: tuna/mayo/mustard sandwich w/ tomato, cut up carrot sticks, and 2-3 slices cucumber (not very good)
dinner: 2 slices cheese pizza =)

Tomorrow is FRIDAY! Woot!

Mental Health Day

Took a mental health day today. I greatly needed it. It was very productive. I organized today, literally as well as mentally. I'm not sure which was needed more... I paid bills, did homework, planned, cleaned out the back of my car (loose papers everywhere!), and munched on good greasy food today. No sweets though!

breakfast: the usual
lunch: all beef hotdog with ketchup and relish, baked cheetos and tortilla chips w/ salsa
dinner: chili's cheeseburger and fries w/ ketchup

ok, so not the healthiest. But... I did resist sweets, and that was tough today!

I also went to GreenLife today, our small town "Whole Foods". Picked up a canister of oat bran, a jar of pumpkin butter, some garlic pecan whole grain pilaf, and some Kashi vive cereal.

I think I'm going to treat myself to some good Greek yogurt with honey this weekend and some yummy flavored seltzers. I also want to pick up some wheatberries to try them out.

That's it for now. Going to be a long 8 days coming up, then a bit of relaxation. But not too much =)

Need.A.Vacation

Really aggravated with just about everything right now. This is getting to be a really bad habit of mine. Mom, T, the hospital, work, homework, e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g.

breakfast: the usual. threw in a little bit of grapenuts too for some added crunch
lunch: turkey, cheese, lettuce, mustard sandwich. leftover green beans w/ bacon and some baked cheetos
dinner: 2 slices papa johns pizza. dipped crusts in their special garlic sauce

because i am so stressed right now, i really want sweets. bad! i'm trying so hard to resist though.

Weekend and Monday

I'll try to remember what I ate... Oh, and definately felt sick after so many sweets friday night.

Saturday
coffee w/ creamer

at work: PB (dark choc. flavored yum) sandwich
pear
couple bites of mango
mini york pepp patty

dinner: steak with baby bellas on top
grilled zucchini and squash
skim milk

with friends: coke zero

snack: vanilla yogurt, pumpkin, trail mix, maple PB mixed together

sunday
breakfast: cinnamon banana pancakes w/ syrup. coffee w/ creamer

lunch: spinach salad with craisins, golden raisins, peach, filet, and EVOO/balsamic dressing. 2-3 bites of sweet honey croissant (similar to baklava)
iced tea

with friend: tall nonfat vanilla latte from s-bux

pepp. tea

dinner: burger with cheese ketchup, tomato, lettuce, and fried egg. don't knock it until you try it. coke zero

today
breakfast: oats, banana, pumpkin, cinnamon mixed up and nuked with kashi on top and spoon of PB. coffee w/ cream
lunch: chicken poppy casserole, loaded mashed potatoes, green beans with bacon. catered @ work. dinner roll
dinner: salad mix, spinach leaves, turkey burger patty, shredded cheese, tomato, and lite ranch. wheat thins.

all and all, a great weekend with T. much quality time. a bonfire with a friend and neighbor, put up halloween and took down christmas stuff and winter clothes from the attic. just a great weekend. oh yeah, GORGEOUS weather and leaves! =)

Happy Halloween

Okay, I don't get it. I just don't understand.

breakfast: coffee w/ creamer. oats, pumpkin, banana, cinnamon, 2 dates nuked with water. kashi, splash of skim milk and a spoonfull of PB on top
lunch: turkey burger on sesame bun w/ ketchup and slice of cheese. salad w/ salad mix, spinach leaves, baby bellas, craisins, walnuts, and french dressing drizzle. <--- good =)
dinner: sonic reeses PB cup blast (small), iced sugar cookie and mini york peppermint patty.

now, mind you all of those treats are my favorite and I knew they would be there when I went to work, so I thought that would be my "dinner."

but... I.... feel.... sick.....

What in the world??!!

In other news, after many people (ok, the entire department at the hospital) tried to talk me into reading the Twilight series, I finally caved. And shockingly enough, I like it.

Is there a full moon tonight? Strange things are happening.
T also remembered details about my day today as well as my day tomorrow.
odd........

Happy Halloween Eve!

Been a decent week. Not much to report. I have this overwhelming feeling of missing my Dad right now. I'm booking a flight for Thanksgiving ASAP.

breakfast: banana dog (on hot dog bun w/ PB&J) and some oats, bit of pumpkin, 2 dates, cinnamon, water, and a couple walnuts nuked with some kashi cinn. shredded wheat and a splash of skim milk on top. Couldn't finish all of it. also had a cup of coffee with creamer
lunch: turkey, cheese, and mustard sandwich and almost a whole mango
dinner: chicken noodle soup and a wheat bagel with strawberry cream cheese on it
i need to go grocery shopping. i think i'm going to cook soups this weekend to stock up the freezer.

Thursday

Not much new today. Mom frustrates me. She can't set a date for her surgery until they biopsy a few more places. I think she is putting things off.

I need sleep tonight. Slept 5 hours last night. The only reason I even got that much in was because I slept down the hall in B's room. T was snoring way too loud for me..

Breakfast: oats, water, cinnamon, date. some kashi, grape nuts, and 2 spoonfulls of PB on top. also a splash of skim milk. coffee with creme brulee creamer <--had that yesterday too and didn't mention it
Lunch: leftover pad thai w/ tofu and extra spoonful of PB and splash of tamari. apple with cinnamon sprinkled on the slices
Dinner: pork tenderloin, baked beans, kiwi

Probably have a cup of Chai tea (no milk or sugar, just tea) when I get home. I've been having a cup of tea every night when I get home from work lately. It's getting really chilly here.

That's all for now. Boring day. Still at work. Going to stop by the store on the way home, and then try and get some dishes and laundry done tonight hopefully before bed.

Hump Day

Sorry I've been MIA. Been pretty stressed and perpetually pissed off for the past couple of weeks. Why the stress you ask? Oh, maybe the 5-6 hours of sleep per night (max!), 40 mile drive each way everyday, working 60 hours per week (min!), birth control pills, no free time, no love from the hunny, mom, blah, blah. I.need.a.vacation.

Today was a great eating day though.
Breakfast: quaker oats, cinnamon, banana, and water heated. little bit of uncle sam's cereal and kashi cereal on top with a date, a splash of skim milk and a spoonful of PB
Lunch: leftover pad thai made with tofu and half of a bagel
Dinner: pasta salad with cukes, tomato, spinach leaves, cubed chicken, craisins, parm cheese, zesty italian dressing. kiwi (sooooo good) and banana cut up on the side.

Yum.

I have a sundae in the mini fridge at my desk that a co-worker just brought for me. So sweet.. but its a sweet... I hope it keeps in the freezer. If not, not a big deal.

I'm craving....


a bike ride. hahaha.

Friday Funday!

So today was Day 15! It's going by so fast. I'm almost at my 21 day mark! And it does get easier. Yesterday I passed up dark chocolate m&m's and homemade cookies, and today banana pudding, the sweets from yesterday, an oreo DQ blizzard that was ordered for me and birthday cake! I'm working tomorrow, so I'm saving all the treats for then. =)

This morning I had breakfast at a meeting (bypassed the blueberry muffins) and had BBQ lunch catered in by one of the Dr.'s. Had PB&J, grapenuts, and dried fruit for dinner.

Today was a great food day, and saying "no" to the sweets today makes me look forward to them that much more for tomorrow.

I also have been walking on my lunch breaks this week since the weather has finally cooled off a bit. I used to be "the walker" the last 2 years at school, but I had my friend who always came with. We would catch up on girl talk, and this and that. Anyhow, it can be relaxing every now and then, but definitely not as much fun to walk by yourself everyday. Too bad I work with a bunch of lazies. It makes it very hard to recruit a buddy, even with this cheerleader attitude of mine.

I hope everyone has a great weekend!

Maybe I was wrong..

At least I can admit it. I think, yes even I, may have overreacted.. just a bit. I don't believe that he is mad at me, but rather the whole world today. That I can take.

We may be moving soon. Kate, get ready for yet another one. It makes me literally sick to keep up with the number of places I have lived over the last 9 years. Bleh.

On a lighter note, I simply cannot wait until my S-days this weekend. PMS is out in full force today and I'm having to beat her off with a stick.

Also, this weekend I am volunteering at the Ford Warrior Wear booth at the Susan G. Komen Race for the Cure event. Go Mom and all of my patients!!!!!

For your homework tonight, check out http://www.savethetatas.com/

Tomorrow morning I get to go to Tumor Boards! Woot Woot! I am such a geek! I love to sit around at a roundtable with Dr.'s though from all different fields of medicine bouncing ideas off of each other. I just sit back like a fly on the wall in awe. Oh, how I wish tomorrow were an S-day so I could partake in the breakfast of sweets. Surely there will be something there for me though. Maybe a bagel and juice???

So not good..

This may be our first argument. Technically, we have not argued but the tension is killing me. We have to talk. I feel so lost. I don't want to offend/annoy/irritate/set him off..

Leftover chicken

Due to an enormous amount of leftover meat from the football party, I have become very creative in coming up with meals to get rid of said leftovers. My favorite so far was a chicken salad, complete with cubed chicken, lite mayo, craisins, and chopped pear. Oh yes, and lots of black pepper. Delish.

My other new fave are Welch's individually packaged dried fruit bits. I'm usually not big on pre-packaging, but I get bored with a giant bag of the same old dried fruit. This has a couple packs of berries, a couple tropical, and some mixed fruit. And the packets are the perfect size to complement a meal and nix that sweets craving.

Ok, so I sound like an advertisement.. oh well. =)

Great news last night! Mom's node biopsy came back negative! Hopefully we can start treatment soon. What a relief!

Discipline

Obedience, Habit, call it what you will. "Discipline is the bridge between goals and accomplishments." I work at a Catholic hospital and the calendar has a daily quote/scripture/what have you. Most days I read them and ponder them for a bit. Some stay with me longer than others. Today's really stuck. I saw it in a whole new "NOS" light if you will. I have seen discipline help me to achieve pretty much anything I have ever been successful in. Looking back, that was the key ingredient in every major accomplishment in my life. I need to remember that more often during my weak moments.

Oh, and today I had plenty of them! 2 birthdays in the department! Worked with a pregnant girl and another self declared PMS'ing girl today. AKA snackaholics. Seconds were the only thing that didn't really tempt me, but even those did a bit. I have been craving sweets all day. I know my body does not need them, or any other food right now. I have fed it healthy, protein-filled declicious meals today. I should not be hungry.

I too am 1 week prior to my visitor and maybe that is what is testing me. Who knows... All I do know, is that coffee has been my lifesaver today. I'm about to drink my 3rd cup and it's nearly 6pm so that's not too bad. It has helped me in my weakest moments today though.

I keep thinking about the brownies in my freezer and how I want to make oatmeal scotchies and keep them in the freezer. This weekend is going to be so S-weet!

Keep reminding myself. It will be worth the wait.

Awesome Weekend

To say that I was extremely stressed Friday was an understatement. Saturday morning was a little less, and Saturday afternoon... well I definitely relaxed. I can't believe I even stressed at all. T took care of everything, as usual. I came home to a quiet, clean home that smelled of heavenly BBQ and all the fixin's. Friends joined us later and I actually had a couple beers and a nice lemonade/cherry vodka cocktail. Yum!

Sunday was great, because I woke up after a 12 hour slumber! Go me! Then we had breakfast, showered, and took the bike out on our best ride yet. Stopped by a friends to watch a game, shared a banana split on the way home, and hung out on the couch the rest of the night. I love him.

NOS was awesome as well this weekend. I had some brownies from the previous weekend that I wrapped up and stored in the freezer, some of the banana split, a chai tea latte, and some PB truffles. So content =)

Much like Blue, I was relieved to have a Monday N Day. It felt good to have that rhythm back.

This is very choppy, I know. In all, today was the best day I can remember in a looong time. Thanks be to God, for starting the day off right with a kiss from my hunny and a gorgeous sunrise.

Day 9

Today is Day 9 on NOS. This last week has been absolutely ridiculously hectic. Between phonecalls with Mom, her nurse, Dr., sister, Dad, etc..... Working, tests at school, T working extra jobs, hardly any sleep..... and to top it all off, we are hosting the football game at our house. Thank goodness for NOS! We are having chili, chicken, pork tenderloin, steaks, meatballs, bbq weenies, queso dip, free flowing beer and vodka w/ mixers...... yea. I'm going to partake in a bit, but really don't want too much of it. I'm sure there will be plenty of leftovers and I have already enjoyed my S day at work today. I have had brownies that I made last weekend and waited for me all week in the freezer, and some PB Lindt truffles and coffee. Oh, I had a chai tea latte this morning as well. Yea, I'm going a bit overboard right now, but I'm still on plan and still losing, so I guess I'm just getting this excess out of the way. I already feel like I am overeating and crave a good hunger. I wasn't used to eating 3 meals a day.

Started at 127 last Friday. That was my highest in probably 3 years...... At least. But I am back on bc pills, and have played with 3 different hormone levels this year alone. My body is probably pissed at me. I was 104 on New Years Day 2008... Moving out/Breaking up.... Moving In/New Relationship... Finishing X-Ray School... Starting Radiation Therapy School... Mom's Diagnosis.... It's all taken quite a toll.

Blah. Blah.

Going to do some work now.